Losing My Shadow

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1.
The dogged fears inside of you Oh let them escape, I can’t do it without you, babe All the stars are dark and I can feel your pain Let your heart escape, I can’t do it without you, babe Was it something that you had to say? Fill my heart with pain, I can’t do it without you, babe I’m running in place Feel this whole thing is out of phase, feel my heart erase I can’t do it without you, babe, It’s a lemon life Cause and effect Seems we never really can get ahead, unless we’re living in the same dream No need to suffer, don’t you hesitate, let your heart escape But I can’t do it without you, babe, Pinch of salt and I’m out of phase, feel my heart erase So let’s just slow down a moment, halt all hot takes I can’t do it without you, babe, It’s a slow impassive phase, some men don’t escape I can’t do it without you, babe It’s a lemon life Cause and effect Seems we never really can get ahead, unless we’re living in the same dream.
2.
Wishin' Well 03:44
Lay awake or fall asleep, seems the time’s the same to me Counting coins or counting sheep, the walls just shake Automate your overdose, bellissima/belicose Borderline or overbroke, the walls just shake Count the seconds, count the breaths Sound deceptive, sound distressed The walls just shake Now if somebody says it’s gonna be alright, don’t believe them Lay awake or fall asleep, seems the time’s the same to me Counting coins or counting sheep, the walls just change
3.
You wanted my love and I wanted you trust But I was telling you lies, I was down in the dust Painting pictures for you, painting pictures for myself, as I’ve learned to do And as time fell flat, I crept in decay I was lost in the haze, my days drifting away In my head I knew something my heart wasn’t ready to face You wanted my love and I wanted your trust But I was telling you lies I was down in the dust Painting pictures for you painting, pictures for myself as I’ve learned to do I just want you to… I want to live clean and be better it’s true But the hammers keep falling, I’m not breaking through It’s a head misalignment, I must try to be true At times I’m cold, my heart is racing, devil’s chasing me out my own door I don’t know anymore, I just want you to… I challenge myself to make a change Don’t hesitate till no life’s left, no life forever, die not ever knowing I just want you to…. Push me around, pray on my fears, harden my heart...
4.
Sunlight slips through my fingers Your love never lingers long enough for me to say what I feel Your passion is never-lasting Seems we always fucking fight till you run away It’s truly massive The way the world spins round you and all you see Your radio waves passing through space and time I’m gonna lose my mind You spent your whole life searching for sunshine I want to share my love Your touch is such a deception Each kiss is a lesson I can’t seem to learn It’s truly massive the way the world spins round you I’m a blip in your atmosphere You spent your whole life searching for sunshine I want to share my love 'Cause it’s hard to separate but it’s important to me And the feelings I can’t shake can’t seem to wipe the slate clean If I could start the whole thing over maybe then I’d get to see I want to share my love
5.
I know you love me but you’re only gonna hold me back I know you love me but you’re only gonna hold me back 'Cause I feel your love No there’s nothing gonna hold me back I know you love me but you’re only gonna hold me back Fear aint nothing, fear no surprises I feel my heart and I can’t get my head out the clouds What do you think of me now? Now there’s nothing, no there’s nothing gonna hold me back Now there’s nothing, no there’s nothing gonna hold me back 'Cause i feel your love and there’s nothing gonna hold me back Now there’s nothing, no there’s nothing gonna hold me back
6.
Nobody’s calling, nobody’s checking in It’s December, man I fear i’m fading out It’s not the way I wanna be, it’s just the way I've been feeling And I don’t wanna be alone, man it hurts to be alone It’s just like out of thin air, I’m erased and no one’s there In the cobwebbed carousel of my mind Man, it hurts to be alone I watched the fireworks, through the window in my room And I listened as the clock turned over a year It’s not the way I wanna be, it’s just the way I’ve been feeling And I don’t wanna be alone, man it hurts to be alone It’s just like out of thin air, I’m erased and no one’s there In the cobwebbed carousel of my mind, I don’t notice anything at all I got love for everyone You could call me up, over the telephone, but I wouldn’t listen 'Cause I don’t hear anymore It’s not the way I wanna be, it’s just the way I’ve been feeling And I don’t wanna be alone, man it hurts to be alone It’s just like out of thin air, I’m erased and no one’s there In the cobwebbed carousel of my mind, I don’t notice anything at all I got love for everyone.
7.
Falling 04:52
I could scream at the sky I still ask myself why I didn’t go that day It’s a stab to my pride but I guess I don’t mind You're the one who went away I get the feeling I’m falling I scream at the sky but I know it’s alright Nothing’s gonna change And I’m left with this life and I’m wondering where you’d go I still feel so strange oh but, it’s too late I get the feeling that I’m falling Somebody else is standing there Out in the hall whispering lightly in you ear You think you’ve had it all? Well when you’re far away you’ll find you’re not as strong And nobody else can help you I get the feeling that I am falling
8.
Mistakes 03:56
Child, protector of the light Don’t lose your glow, conquer everthing in sight Till you can’t eat you can’t sleep but you’re tired Don’t lose your glow, don’t ever lose your glow 'Cause the fire, the fire in you, the fire in you is bright And I’ve given all I have just to give you life We’re the same, we’ll never separate, I’ll help you navigate Don’t lose your glow, don’t ever lose your glow. 'Cause you can make, you can make your own mistakes You don’t need mine If you’re ever in danger, don’t be a stranger, I said boy don’t you understand You’ve got the world in the palm of your hand. Charm and the firelight that you’re guided by Don’t lose your glow, don’t ever lose your glow I’m just saying keep a straight line and a sane mind Don’t lose your glow, don’t ever lose your glow 'Cause you can make, you can make your own mistakes You don’t need mine If you’re ever in danger, don’t be a stranger, I said boy don’t you understand You’ve got the world in the palm of your hand.
9.
The center, life of the party when everyone goes home You lose it, try to remember but your thoughts are dry as bones This should feel like flying but you’re under radar And too sick of trying to hide it anymore I’m nothing to see, I’ve got all I need, I am all I need I’m nothing to see, I’ve got all I need, I am all I need I’m just a ghost in the room The center, life of the party when everyone goes home You lose it, try to remember but your thoughts are dry as bones I’m nothing to see, I’ve got all I need, I am all I need I’m nothing to see, I’ve got all I need, I am all I need I’m just a ghost in the room, just a ghost in the room.

credits

released June 13, 2019

Written by Bud Wilson

Bud Wilson - vocals, bass, guitar, synth, percussion
Cameron Spies - synth, programming, backing vocals, bass, guitar
Dana Valatka - percussion (1, 3, 4, 7, 8, 9)
Travis Leipzig - bass (4, 7, 9)

Produced by Cameron Spies & Bud Wilson

Mixed & Recorded by Cameron Spies
Mastered by Kelly Hibbert at Almachrome

Executive Producers: Bud Wilson & Kenny / Fresh Selects
Co-Executive Producer: Ben Hubbird for Party Damage

Design & Layout by Tawfiq Mardini
Cover Illustration by Reese Lawhon

Recorded January 2017 - April 2018 at Gold Brick Studio and Red Lantern Studio in Portland, Oregon

FSX-037 © 2019 Fresh Selects.

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